NUTS...Here we go again.

I was one of the faithful Jericho fans who sent letters, emails, and nuts to get the show back for on the air. I even bought the t-shirts. Great second season, that's about all I can say. But it does suck that Big Brother is still on. Are you serious? Big Brother - the show about people who are more interested in mentally ripping each to to shreds mentally and emotionally AND THEN getting paid a large sum of money to win? TV viewers please jump up and take notice. One night a week Big Brother might be okay, but how many nights is it now? I am proud to say I don't keep track. I say CBS should let Jericho take one of those nights big Brother is on? Why not? If Big Brother is that great it should be able to handle the 10:00 slot. And you are going to tell me the Neilson families are watching Big Brother enough to keep it television? Hard to swallow. Maybe its good the Nielson families aren't listed anywhere - or at least I can't find them. Good, because they would be inundated with more nuts than Brittany Spears has court dates. Peanuts, cashews, almonds, hazelnuts, Brazil nuts, and probably even a few human nuts. Who are these people and where do they live? I know tons of people who watch Jericho. We talk more Jericho than anything else, does this count? Does it also count that I will boycott CBS now? I'm sure I won't matter - I have no Nielson box in my house, can't send in the shows I watch on one of their trusty little count sheets, and I certainly don't call into them to tell them what I am watching. IMHO CBS real IT screwed the pooch on this one. It may not show up right away, might take some time, but I believe it is time to take a stand - we pay darn good money so we can come home spend time with our families then sit around a watch good television - of course this show may not be for children under 13 - my opinion only (remember I'm still trying). But for those of us who have mostly adult homes this is a great show. And I pay for cable, BOY do I pay. And they are going to tell me they are taking this away from me? AGAIN! Networks listen up. One day, there will be a network that will actually listen to the viewers, the fans, the networks bread and butter and low and behold, we will be able to have a show that may cost a lot to produce and is a little beyond the happy go lucky 30 minute love stories, or the brainless "reality-TV". Okay people, I did it - I put "" around reality. And the reality actors - oh no she di-ent - yep I did. I know one these "reality actors". Their decisions are dwindled down so much they should all be named something like "The Producers on the Island stuck with a bunch of whiney, hungry, thirsty people in string bikinis trying to hook up so they can make a million." I think should cover at least 80% network reality shows on. With this being said, yes I do watch a few reality shows - and yes its my spam - the one thing I am horrified about. I try to keep it to Survivor, Project Runway, Design Star, and the next hurts, it really hurts - wait for it.....Road Rules vs Real World Gauntlet. Now you get where the gauntlet came from. cheap I know. Have I rambled or what? Too sleepy to proof-read. Tomorrow when I read this I might change my name and move to another country with no Internet access. Oh wait - I could move to the CBS executive offices since they are apparently so out of touch with --- everything, I think that would be a great vacation from anything real. So CBS I'm holding up my virtual champagne glass filled with the best tasting champagne in the world and I am making a toast, a toast to every other freakin network channel where I will find new shows and a new home. You have been voted off the island, you have been evicted, show your cookie cutter shows because you aren't creative enough to have a show like Jericho stay and bring happiness to your viewers. I liked Ghost Whisperer - good-bye Jennifer Love, I will be watching over shows or movies during your Friday night, good-bye Survivor, I will be outside more surviving my backyard and pool, good-bye CSI-Miami which was the only CSI worth watching anways, I hope Eric and Calleigh get married, H becomes governor of Florida, and Wolf can come be my poolboy.
Did I mention I have been having a little insomnia lately and getting some help with a little white pill. This might explain some of the craziness here - but I would guess at least 50% is all me. Can't believe they took my show! Nuts to CBS, may they find themselves in a situation where the show could have taught them how to survive. I do wish them well, just not in the television industry. They would be great at repo though - "hey sonny, like that car? too bad Nina Tassler is here to pick it up. doesn't matter if you paid it off, this is what she does." I'm out, this is getting insane....I hope you all have wonderful dreams and your Monday is full of full functional systems, cold air and warm air when appropriate, may your co-workers feel like doing their owns jobs so you aren't left picking up the slack! A Mighty Monday we will have.

TaTa....and Skeet if you are listening....man we tried, we really tried! I'm going to miss Jake Green and Hawkins, not to mention Stanley. You three made Jericho! We will follow your careers and I wish you much success and a little more luck with the next network.

Jericho Rangers will live...in our hearts!

Yesterday...not just another day

So my birthday was not just another day. It actually turned out very well, and I had some fun - which is always a bonus. Went to class last night, passed my quiz and the guys in class sang Happy Birthday to me. Yeah I told them to stick with computers. I'm the only female in class so they took much pleasure in embarrassing me. I wasn't even going to mention my birthday but one of my friends in class made sure to announce it. I do believe the color of the night was blush. My sister sent me some beautiful flowers, my mom gave me some money (what I wanted) and we are going to Fernandina this weekend and get some adirondack chairs I have been eyeing. They will look perfect on my front porch. And perhaps some peel and eat shrimp, got to stay healthy. That baby is coming in the next year come hell or high water!

For now Tata, and remember; courage doesn't always roar, sometimes it comes in small voices saying I will try again tomorrow.

Tomorrow - just another day

I use to love my birthday. When I was young I thought the school's chose to be off the week of March 20th so I wouldn't have to go to school on my birthday. Wow, what a narcissistic kid. But when I got a little older I realized I was just lucky. And I loved having my birthday on the first day of spring (according to which calendar you look at). I felt special. Now it's just another day. My mom and sister are really the only ones who celebrate it, but this year it's a very sad one for me. I wanted to be a mom by the age of 38. But I will mourn this and move on. I will embrace being an older mother when the time comes. Besides, having a child at this age will help keep me young - right? Or so the theory goes. And the walking thing - eh, been doing okay. Nothing to write home about or no cause to place a celebratory ad in the paper. Bella keeps me walking though, it's good for her and good for me. It's funny, I have always been afraid to write my thoughts down. Someone might think me crazy or unwell, but getting them out of me makes me feel lighter. If you're out there reading this I hope it makes you laugh or at least know you are not alone.

Sometimes its okay to close your eyes and ignore what's in front of you; especially when you are standing in front of the mirror didn't get enough sleep the night before.

TaTa, for now. Hope March brings you much joy and peace!

My promise

So since I created this blog, oh so long ago - I have been thinking, my blog doesn't really have a subject except for - well - me. This is what I would like to do. I want to blog about bettering myself on a weekly basis. Each week I will pick something I want to work on and write about how it's going. For this week and all of next week (since it is Thursday) the promise I am making to myself is to start an evening walking routine. Taking Bella for our evening stroll doesn't count since the five to ten minutes we spend sniffing each blade of grass at each house we pass doesn't really constitute a heart-rate-accellerating-fat-burning-sweat-producing walk. Here is my plan: I will take Bella for her grass-sniffing-stroll which takes around 30 minutes even though we only go two blocks. When I bring her home I will turn right around to walk the exterior of neighborhood which should take around 45 minutes. It's a great neighborhood to walk in due to some inclines and winding roads - not to mention its a safe area so even late evenings will be okay. So the gauntlet has been thrown - can you throw a gauntlet to yourself? Heh. I will keep the blog updated as much as possible. If you don't hear from me, it means I'm out walking.

And away we go.....

Today is my first blog. First blog ever. This should be great - interesting - or just something. Time will tell. I have been wanting to start and keep a journal for years, but I keep putting it off. No time like the present and no more time to waste. I see my life passing before me and I can't hit pause or rewind and man when did we lose the ability to call do-overs? I miss those. I will be 38 next week. I'm single and I want to have a child. Going through four artifical insemination two years ago and having no pregnancy as a result was very hard to deal with. I have decided to move forward to in-vitro. Expensive as heck, but think about the reward. Doc says I need to lose some weight to be heathly for an over 35 pregnancy. So I have started the good ole excercise and eating better regiment. Haven't weighed in the last two weeks but I feel better. That has to count for something.

Though I have years worth to talk about, I will bow out for today. I hope anyone reading this will enjoy, respond or even get something out of it.

Remember, be kind to yourself, you have a long way to travel together.